yes.   DEAD as in not working…

 darn, don’t you just hate that?  MY VAIO NOTEBOOK is not working. 

I was working on some ‘computer work’ last night… decided to restart my computer and BAM… windows won’t boot up… WAITED for half an hour (maybe it’s just being slow) but nothing happened… so darn, i had to forced restart it… same thing happen…use the SAFE MODE, didn’t work, tried all the options i have… NOTHING WORKED… been trying to fix it since last night…. it’s past 24hrs now of me WITHOUT my baby (vaio)

I am not very impressed with SONY’s costumer service, I love their product, the brand, and everything but they’re after transaction is NOT very good really.  same as windows’ incompetent operating system… i seriously need a MacBook Pro… darn it… bad timing for such a tragic disaster.

I have a client meeting this wednesday as well… and I’m afraid I will have to cancel that now… I am also working on a website for a group of young talents and I will have to push that for a later due date now… and another fan site… MY GOODNESS… why does this have to happen? stupid windows…. sigh!

Now that I am very attached to my computer, I almost feel like I’m half dead without it…. a little confession, I spend 10+ hours of my time with it EVERYDAY… i feel like i DONT have anything else to do without it!  I hate using this desktop… I’ve been missing my computer 2hours before windows mess it up, and I miss it MORE than anything else now!…. :cage: 

Photoshoots are always fun! I love doing photoshoots either as the PHOTOGRAPHER or the person infront of the camera. this was all completely for fun. we were having a good time and you can tell theyr were so INTO it after all. aAHAHAHaa!

why MCK? we’ll supposedly it’s a cover shot for my own MCK-MAGAZINE… aahahhah

I know i coulve done the picture a LOT stronger but these people are just my friends, they are NOT real models. ahhahaha. i wish i could shot a REAL MODEL. pffTt.. that’d be dream come true really. or highlight of my PHotography career. cheerrZz!

Anyhow, work sucks today. everything seemed to might hve gone so wrong. i absolutely hated this day. working 8hrs GOD knows if i can make it through on the next few days! LMAO. i mean i have the worst leg on the face of this earth and they hurt so badly everyday. EVERYDAY! damn, not only they are SHORT legs, they are sicky legs too. pffTt.. *way to go dissing your own legs* WAHHHHHHHHH!

anyways. its PAYDAY today! i dont know where to spend my money yet this next 2 weeks but probly, I’d grab myself some new dress pants, new sweater for fall, and couple of new shirts. and THAT’s it. some goes to mom, then to my sis, pay my phonebill, then everything thats left would all go to my SAVINGS account. DAMN! God knows i need to SAVE UP. whatever i save, it usually end up spending them at the end of the 2 weeks so now lets try not to SPEND any of it. yea, i said NOT ANY OF it! well goodluck for me on that!

life sometimes can be unfair. shits happen and just when you had enough and you can’t take it anymore, things just go out of control. I dont know but i feel so down today. i felt like I’m giving my all tryin to do good in school but I just can’t seem to balance things up. I would get good marks on math, then fucked up the test for geography. Get a good mark for English, then be blank on my Spanish test. I mean c’mon, what is wrong with me!

we recently did a homework essay for English, and I swear i thought I did a pretty good essay, then when I got it back today, i just realized how badly it was done. 2 out of 6. that’s a failed. and it just sucks because I thought I gave my all, but noh noh! it was seriously bad. I made the most stupid mistakes ever. like spelling, grammars, things that are so obvious and I know for sure, but completely forgot. added to that, my super-high-standard teacher who marks so hard! I’m just too aggravated right now! I’m tired of SCHOOL, this whole crap makes me wanna die! I’ve been tryin so hard, I’ve been studying but my memory sucks, I am not smart, i dont like doing all these studying crap!… i can review a lesson, know all about it today, then forget everything about it tomorrow! its bad. its ridiculously bad!… where’s the old me!? maybe i wasnt just trying my hardest, maybe i wasnt giving my all… or maybe I’m just not good enough. I know this may seem to be a lil dramatic but hey, this is how i feel…

I’m just so stressed out today, i feel like my head is going to explode anytime. advil might help! I was feeling really bad during STRINGS class today, i mean its the end of the day, pass the end of school. and its monday… and God knows how i hate mondays. i was yawning in class and i couldnt help it, therefore i missed to play, and my teacher went like ‘well it would be best if you set a good example in this class M’c kenneth, you are the most experienced here and I want you to act like it so WAKE UP’ (thats not how she exactly said it, but its similar to that) and I got so frustrated… everytime she has to comment about me, she would have to mention that I’m a senior student and I SHOULD BE a role model and things like that, and its not fair to put that pressue on me.. I DONT NEED IT. I am in a lot of pressure at this point of my life and I don’t need any from her.

Let’s MOVE ON

the over-rated WHISTLER MUSIC festival is coming in 3days. I should really start packing up my stuff. we’re gonna be there for 4days and 3nights! I’m gonna be stayin in a room with 3 other people. THE ROOM has got only 1 bed, and 1 sofa/folding bed and I dont know yet how is that going to work. Last year we had 2 beds in a room but we didnt have a kitchen, good thing about this year is that we got to have our own mini kitchen where we can be our own chefs for once.