Lately I’ve been running in a circle, same old thing everyday. suddenly everything lost its flavour. not even a single color would appear anymore. every now and then i find happiness slipping away. I WANT IT BACK. fully.

I wake up in the morning, get ready for work, then walk the superficial street of Robson, fake smiles at work, faking the grin, hiding the discontentment. Maybe true happiness never left me, maybe I’m just not seeing or feeling it but it’s always been there.

but you know what, I never care anymore. I want my old self back, ME always happy no matter what life has to throw at me. SIGH!

WHAT I want right now is to get away from this place for a moment, be by myself, and live like a survivor in a foreign place. SOMEWHERE where no one knows me, where I can become transparent, where I can be myself and not be someone, ONLY because people expect me to be that person.

I want to fly high, and free, like the eagle(?), but I’m stucked here, with my wings glued.

I’ll be fine.