after countless hour of packing, i’m finally done, almost done! I’m not, I’m tryin to remember as much things i shuld bring as possible…

*clothes
*sleepwears
*underwears
*fleece, jackets, and sweater
*swimwear (bouhH!)
*foods
*toiletries
*BAND FULL UNIFORM
*laptop (adaptor, obviously!)
*camera and videocam with tripod (usb and stuff)
*ipod, accessories, cellphone

and thats all i can think of right now, i hope i didnt forget anything!… phEww… I’m not excited at all, I’m thinking of Geography quiz that i missed, MATH test that I’m going to miss tomorrow since we’re leaving early and things I have to deal with after Whistler, but anyways, I JUST WANNA HAVE FUN on this trip, no more thinking of what I’m gonna face after this whole trip is over. THis is like the highlight of the year, and I must enjoy it. I REALLY MUST! last trip before we leave high school and it should be exciting, ironically. its not!… i just hope the place is nice and the hotel we’re staying in is good and worth our money.

life sometimes can be unfair. shits happen and just when you had enough and you can’t take it anymore, things just go out of control. I dont know but i feel so down today. i felt like I’m giving my all tryin to do good in school but I just can’t seem to balance things up. I would get good marks on math, then fucked up the test for geography. Get a good mark for English, then be blank on my Spanish test. I mean c’mon, what is wrong with me!

we recently did a homework essay for English, and I swear i thought I did a pretty good essay, then when I got it back today, i just realized how badly it was done. 2 out of 6. that’s a failed. and it just sucks because I thought I gave my all, but noh noh! it was seriously bad. I made the most stupid mistakes ever. like spelling, grammars, things that are so obvious and I know for sure, but completely forgot. added to that, my super-high-standard teacher who marks so hard! I’m just too aggravated right now! I’m tired of SCHOOL, this whole crap makes me wanna die! I’ve been tryin so hard, I’ve been studying but my memory sucks, I am not smart, i dont like doing all these studying crap!… i can review a lesson, know all about it today, then forget everything about it tomorrow! its bad. its ridiculously bad!… where’s the old me!? maybe i wasnt just trying my hardest, maybe i wasnt giving my all… or maybe I’m just not good enough. I know this may seem to be a lil dramatic but hey, this is how i feel…

I’m just so stressed out today, i feel like my head is going to explode anytime. advil might help! I was feeling really bad during STRINGS class today, i mean its the end of the day, pass the end of school. and its monday… and God knows how i hate mondays. i was yawning in class and i couldnt help it, therefore i missed to play, and my teacher went like ‘well it would be best if you set a good example in this class M’c kenneth, you are the most experienced here and I want you to act like it so WAKE UP’ (thats not how she exactly said it, but its similar to that) and I got so frustrated… everytime she has to comment about me, she would have to mention that I’m a senior student and I SHOULD BE a role model and things like that, and its not fair to put that pressue on me.. I DONT NEED IT. I am in a lot of pressure at this point of my life and I don’t need any from her.

Let’s MOVE ON

the over-rated WHISTLER MUSIC festival is coming in 3days. I should really start packing up my stuff. we’re gonna be there for 4days and 3nights! I’m gonna be stayin in a room with 3 other people. THE ROOM has got only 1 bed, and 1 sofa/folding bed and I dont know yet how is that going to work. Last year we had 2 beds in a room but we didnt have a kitchen, good thing about this year is that we got to have our own mini kitchen where we can be our own chefs for once.

as you all might have noticed, my site was down for 3 days, my host says that I ran out of Bandwidth which is SO UNLIKELY.. i have a 10gig Bandwidth every month… and my site only consumes below 20mb/day. imagine how in the world i could ever consume my monthly bandwidth. I mean my site isn’t so popular and i dont get more than 5000 hits a day. and for my host to claim that I’ve used my monthly bandwidth and terminate my account is a MISTAKE.

I’ve been emailing them and telling them that this whole thing is a mistake but they never listen, they told me to double check my usage and stuff but trust me! there’s no WAY this thing could be for real. However to make it short, i ask them if they could give me atleast 300mb extra bandwidth just enough to last till April is over, since i would be getting another 10gig of Bandwidth next month. After 2days of no reply from my host, i recieved an email tonight telling me that they’ve given me my request. and that my site should be up by now.

and here I am now, writing about this unfortunate incident.